Living or Simply Existing?

Have you put much thought into which one you’re doing? I know my life may not be the most exciting but I do strive to enjoy it until my time is up. Many people are not aware that they are unhappy, or stagnant, stuck in a routine that they can’t afford to break free from because they do not know what awaits them. But isn’t that a chance you should be willing to take?

There have been many times that I’ve been extremely thankful for doing things on impulse because if I waited until I was ready, I’d never be ready. Looking back, whether the result was good or bad, though more than half the time it was good, I was happy I took the chance I did. I’ve made amazing memories which I cherish and in the moment I was happier than I had ever been before. A feeling of pure bliss and enchantment that does not happen everyday but when it does, it makes a huge difference.

How many of us know people who are merely existing but are not living? How many of us are doing this ourselves? Too many people are walking blank slates without a drop of paint, a blank page with no notes, blank material with no thread. We hear but we do not listen, we speak to reply but not to understand, our family and friends dictate our lives, trying to live through us, criticizing us along the way but are you happy living like this?

Today, I challenge you to do something spontaneous, pack your bags, take a trip and disappear. Do something you’ve always wanted to, experience life. Once you get a taste of life’s high, you’ll know where you stand with your inner peace. Do not be constrained by the woes of life. Now, answer this question, are you living or simply existing?

The Teacher

Throughout my lifetime it seems I have been blessed with a curse to add to other people’s lives while wasting mine. I’ve always been the shoulder to lean on, an amazing lover and friend and yet I always end up alone.

I’m tired of my path intertwining with temporary people who always make me feel as if I was better off without them yet they always make it known to me how good I am and how I helped them. But where is my help? My shoulder to lean on? My permanent?

When will I meet someone who means what they say for more than the moment? Who’s actions match their words? Why am I always the one who has to give themselves in order to help someone else become better just so they can leave?

I guess all students have to move on, but I’m tired of being the teacher and for once would like to be taught. I do deserve that much, to finally connect to someone who will make me realize why everyone else was a waste of time.

I’m told that everything you go through is either a blessing or a lesson, but I never received a lesson I found useful when it involves intimate relationships. Where is my blessing? ¬†Why must I endure the hardship after giving so much only to be left behind as easily as I was found?

I’ve been patient for long enough and the hour glass of life may soon run out, sincerely, the teacher.